Okay so warning to all who might actually attempt to brave this rant: It started small and got big and is probably somewhat incoherrent in the middle. :sweat: :sweat: Sorry

Dear Life

Stop throwing me curve balls! Every time I think I've got enough money to actually relax for a little while and just -enjoy- something you hit something else at me which sends me flat broke!

$250 being spent tomorrow and not a CENT on something I -want- but all on things I -have- to have. This is ridiculous! I don't work FULL TIME. And I have to have MONEY BY SEPTEMBER to go to the stupid wedding in stupid Queensland that I stupidly promised I'd go to! I can't freaking afford it and it's stressing me out SO FREAKING MUCH!

I don't -want- to go because the money has to go towards getting me a metticket which is RIDICULOUSLY expensive but i need to get into Uni every day so I can get a real job and then make some real money! I also need to pay for repairs to my brother's shitheap of a car so it will -run- to get me to the station which makes me pay heaps of money to ride on their piece of shit trains to get me to where I want to go LATE to get to Uni to get a job which I don't even think I want to -do- any more!!!!

*Sobs and hyperventilates*

All I wanted to do was go and see WICKED okay? I'm sorry if that was -wrong- but that's all I freaking wanted to do and I thought I had enough but thank you for proving me entirely wrong by suddenly coming up with -insane- amounts of costs I can barely cover with my bank account. THANK YOU.

I'd HATE to think that it would be -easy- to pay for both what I need AND what I would -like- to do.

This once in a lifetime opportunity is just going to have to fly past me. So THANKS!!!

And to my -bitch- of an older sister. What the FREAK to you mean 'when am I going to move out?' HUH? YOU are 26 STILL living at home, WORKING full time and blowing ALL your money on travel.

Get it through your head -everyone- hates you. You treat us all like shit, me in particular. We want -you- to move out so stop hinting that I at 18, trying to get through Uni, should be the one to move.

I swear to god the first snide comment you make when you get home is going to earn you a belting!!!!

JUST EFF OFF FOR TWO SECONDS AND LET MY MONEY LAST! LET ME HAVE TWO SECONDS WORTH OF HOPE THAT I WON'T END UP NOT -eating- IN NOOSA AND LET ME THINK THAT IT MIGHT ACTUALLY BE OKAY TO SPLURGE ON CHEWING GUM!!!

-stressed and sick of it.

*Sigh* To anyone who actually made it through that, congrats. And sorry. I think that one's been waiting to come out for a while.

Don't you just LOVE siblings that are like that? They make me gag.

But sorry your life is so hectic. I know how that can be, though not to your extent. Hopefully things will get better... and maybe you could talk to the wedding person about costs?

There's not much she can do about it really - I just have to pay to get up there, accomodation and food. I just didn't realise how tight money was going to be stretched when I agreed to go. She's since told me how much she loves that I'm coming and hates these people who pull out now after she's paid for catering *headfloor*